Double Dream Hands!

Now that I ranted about how I'm never going to get a job, I GOT A JOB! I feel like an idiot, but a happy idiot. 

I'll be working with homeless teenagers to help them secure stable housing, as well as working on their goals with them and connecting them with resources within the community. I'm so excited! I'm nervous too, but I know I'll be good at it once I get into the flow of things. 

Anyway, I'm watching Ellen, so I gotta go.

Rolling in the Deep

Well, I've decided that it is time to resurrect the ol' blog. I just read over the few posts that I made in the past, and they still made me feel angry. Hmm... that probably isn't good.

Anyway, as of right now, I am a college graduate with a ton of student loans to pay back and no job. There are few things more frustrating than this for me. I spent so much money, time, and energy on my education. I know that I'm qualified to work in the Human Services field. Buuut since I haven't been working in the field for 35 years, it's next to impossible to find a job doing what I want to do. This is only one of the negative reprecussions of cutting funding to nonprofits and service organizations. Frankly, it's one of the less negative repercussions. Services are being cut, and people aren't getting the help they need.  Where are our values?

I've been on quite a few job interviews, one of which I should be hearing back about tomorrow. Honestly, I'm so used to hearing "no" at this point that I can't expect anything else. I know that's not "positive thinking" (mom and Pamela will be so ashamed) but staying positive is extremely difficult in the face of constant rejection. The up-side is that I'm experiencing something that a lot of my future clients will be experiencing, which gives me some insight into what it's like. What is it like? AWFUL. 

Other than the lack of paid employment, I can't really complain about life. My family is awesome, my friends are wonderful, and my boyfriend is lovely! I'm very fortunate to have such a strong support system. Still, the stress of wondering whether or not I'll be able to afford my share of the rent and bills is enough to make me pretty depressed. 

In other news, I'm slooowly learning to play guitar. I can't wait to be somewhat decent at it. I'm sincerely looking forward to writing songs again and singing more. Til then it's practice, practice, practice!

Hopefully I'll be able to keep up with my blog this time around (not that many people read it.) I'm still wary about posting the link on facebook, because there are people who would be better off not reading it... Haha. 

Anyway, that's it for now. Here's to change!

Jamie